Together our sparks were sparkling together into a big huge colliding explosion until he shot away into another direction. It was then that I suddenly realised that inside our physical bodies we’re all these stars passing and colliding into each other leaving some of our sparks with each other, we were forming each other and together we were all one. And we’re always together no matter what because we could feel each other within ourselves. I continued to watch these stars as they danced around each other, and reminded myself that when I returned back to earth, to always look up at them and remember this place I would always be reminded to feel safe within myself. What I see in you is also in me, it begin and ends with me, with us as one.
There is no such thing as ‘time’, we are the clocks and our heartbeats are ticking. Why do people have to die? Where do they go? Are they still here? There are so many questions and theories about life and death. To have death we must have life, and to have life.. we must have death. It’s another polar opposite experience that we all have to experience on earth, to feel happiness we need sadness, and to have the physical we have to have the non-physical.. right? I’ve always thought there has to be something much bigger out there than this tiny little physical world and our little brains.
This is what I have found when people around me have left this planet – earth.
Death is a normal part of life. We all die. Plants die, animals and humans – we’re all one and we all go through the same process towards death – we all age. We aren’t actively conscious of it but every single day we are getting closer to death. For some their time is short on earth whilst another is longer. When a loved one dies, we grieve and it’s important to let these emotions come and go. We cry for our loss of not having them near and not being able to be in their physical presence, even just to give them a hug. Sometimes we try not to think about a loss but acceptance is a very important transition, by accepting it we aren’t just moving on to forget or let go of this person entirely but to remember them for who they truly were. As difficult as it is, acceptance is an important transition to move away from this sadness we feel when we remember our loss and move towards feeling what we gained from their life and what made them so special.
And anyway, no one ever really dies.
We keep the person alive through our hearts. We remember them by how they felt and how they made us feel. When a dear friend of mine passed away, the sadness gripped over me because physically he was gone but now I can feel him spiritually around me, I can feel the essence of what made him who he was. I hear his laugh, I hear the jokes he would say and his joyous heart so full of love, he was the type of person who had so much hope for life and would never ever hurt anybody intentionally. This projection I feel from him is greatly admired and when I think of it I feel it exist within me. I keep this essence of him alive through my heart. It’s not just the physical body that makes a person and it’s not all we remember of them. It’s what’s inside and what was projected onto us from them. For instance, my dog jake was a fluffy little thing and although I loved cuddling him, it’s what’s in the inside I admired, loved and wanted to be close to. He was so cheeky, so full of love and life, he would always know how to put me in a better mood. These are things that he projected onto me and put me in a playful mood full of love and life. I then felt this great feeling and wanted to share it with others too. When Jake died I held onto his body as he slipped away from me. It almost felt as though he went through my hands, all was left was his lifeless body. What truly made Jake, Jake – was gone from this body and gone somewhere else. I still feel him near me and I dream of him now and again.
I like to keep my dear friend and my dog alive, not just through my memories of them but through my heart. I can still feel them now and then. I like to remember how I felt them, and project the essence of these beautiful beings through my own life.
Death is like the wind, we can’t see them but we can feel them.